SaTiT

well sometimes my HP and a sense of humor.
My HP tells me what i don't wana hear.lol

I feel the same when the days are gray and over cast.
It overcast today, so i know I just have the blues...
and it's okay to have the blues, i just don't judge myself.

I think a lot of it was also i expected too much out of recovery
,out of AA, out of myself. yeap, i hate those stage when everything
seems dull and it feels like I'm going to jump out of my skins at times.
That's when I keep the faith or practice faith. So maybe that's the lesson
I was suppost to learn. And i just hate it when people tell me..
" you're exactly where you're suppost to be"..gosh i just hate that,
becuase my skin really, really wanna crawl in those moments too.lol
i guess so...don't pick up no matter what.

Congrats on your recovery..I didn't take myself too seriousely
when i first got sober..becuase i knew i wasn't thinking or feeling
to well. I don't take myself too seriouse now. lol

anyways..I know what you're saying about keeping my spirit high.
And I needed that. But i have to be careful..if I keep it high all the
time and if i feel a low..then i think there's something wrong with me.
There's nothing wrong with feeling a low...it's thinking there's something
wrong when I feel a low that gets me into a tail spin.

it's okay to feel like crap sometimes. Kind of like music...
high notes, low notes, and the in between notes.
Makes for a beautiful melody or song.
i don't know...some people thinks music is an expession of life.

you know that verse in the bible..
there's a time for everything.
a time to laugh, a time to cry..etc