Yup, I used booze as an anesthetic for pain, too. And even with some length in recovery, I find myself looking for anything that will distract me from the pain of Life on Life's Terms. Even playing computer too much. Even SR.
And I like what Taz said above about oldtimers still needing help. Cuz "down we forgot as up we grew", to paraphrase my favorite t. s. eliot poem. I remember to ask my Higher Power for help, *sometimes* when I get into enough pain. Then five seconds later I forget that's what I need to do and have to remember all over again.
Arg!
Best from the Snowgoose.