Keep going forward, Dakota. Your body, mind and spirit are under a lot of stress right now. Some days, whether it's because of what's going on or just because you're tired, undernourished, didn't take your multivitamin, hormonally on edge, you won't be able to feel quite as impervious to the whole thing.
Some days you'll feel strong and calm.
Some days not so much.
It's all part of the adjustment process. All we can do is keep walking.
It's like this analogy I once read (about writing a novel, but it works here too) It's like driving a car to some destination at night. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.
Keep on drivin'
GL