Hi Shiloh - I love your name! It sounds like you finally are on your way. Being older, I don't feel I have that many more chances to fix myself! Our bodies can't keep coming back time & time again from the abuse. That's really what brought me to the decision to give it up once and for all, no more playing at it. I know I may have already shortened my life by abusing myself, but at least it can stop here....Love, Joanie