I can only repeat what has already been said....this man is not "your guy"
please reread your posts and imagine that someone was telling you this sad tale.....you sound like a caring person...my guess is you would hold your friend's hand and help her to find her way out of this situation....please do that for yourself
attend some alanon groups, get involved in a nearby church or join a gym...do things that will inroduce you to other people and develop friendships...that will help you to focus on things other than this abusive situation...
do you work?
get more involved at work and let that occupy more of your time
you have a whole life ahead of you....please start to live it joyfully