((((Jwife))))
Its not silly at all.
What you are experiencing is very natural I would think, and even though you know the drill of the near future, it doesn't mean that you still don't feel a little ripped off in all of this.
Addiction sends its consequences off in a pretty wide range. I think I'd feel resentment if put in the same situation.
But working through those resentments is what makes us stronger and more able to handle things as they come.
Hang in there ((((Jwife)))
Cece