((((((Jenny))))))
I have recently been where you are, and I'm still feeling some of the aftershock.
We codies are often so deep in denial that we have a hard time acknowledging how chaotic our lives have become. We are also familiar with the life we live with our A's, and the uncertainty of a new lifestyle can be scary.
Mourn the loss of your dreams. Grieve for the loss of what you once thought you had.
You'll heal in your own time, and when you're ready.
Til then, you're in my thoughts and prayers.