Still hanging in there. Spoke to my temp sponsor today and cried the whole time and didn't real feel that her suggestions were the right things for me to do. Spoke to my Mum afterwards which helped a little - as she knows me much more, she was able to suggest things that were more suitable. My temp lady said I need to get out every day, which is too big a step for me at the moment and plus I don't have anywhere to go or anything to do, and wouldn't enjoy it. Mum suggested that as its company that I want, I should try talking to more people and say I'm looking for company.
I've not drank, eaten or self-harmed, so I'm doing okay. Still feel pretty rough, but I'm assured that that is normal. Just hope it gets better. I'm struggling to believe that a higher power can restore me to sanity - it just feels hopeless at the moment.