11 months sober, everything else going wrong!
11 months sober, everything else going wrong!
Today marks 11 months sober. With the support from AA, I'm managing not to drink. I'm also managing with not over-eating.
I'm struggling with self-harm though. 4 slips in 2 weeks. Thats after 10 months without, which was after 5 years without. It just seems to be spiralling and I can't seem to get it under control.
I'm worried that it'll keep getting worse. I feel that if I had a support network like I have in AA, I'd be alright. I don't have anyone I can talk to or call when I feel like self-harming.
11 months is quite a long time, and I'm grateful for that.
I'm struggling with self-harm though. 4 slips in 2 weeks. Thats after 10 months without, which was after 5 years without. It just seems to be spiralling and I can't seem to get it under control.
I'm worried that it'll keep getting worse. I feel that if I had a support network like I have in AA, I'd be alright. I don't have anyone I can talk to or call when I feel like self-harming.
11 months is quite a long time, and I'm grateful for that.
11 months is a long time, in fact it's fantastic - I had my last drink only last Thursday, 11 months seems so far away - you're doing really fantastic on that front, so you have real strength somewhere inside you...
I don't know anything about self-harm, apart from the self-harm of abusing alcohol - but you must have the strength somewhere to fight it if you can stay sober for 11 months!!!
I wish you all the very best with that odaat, I wish I could say something better to help - but stay strong and keep trying to fight it...
Vincent.
I don't know anything about self-harm, apart from the self-harm of abusing alcohol - but you must have the strength somewhere to fight it if you can stay sober for 11 months!!!
I wish you all the very best with that odaat, I wish I could say something better to help - but stay strong and keep trying to fight it...
Vincent.
odaat 0-
hang in ...
this sounds like the disease is taking a sidestep.
if we can't drink - we use. If we can't use - we eat. If we can't eat - we have sex. If we can't find anyone for that - we gamble. If we can't find that - we cut and burn.
See the spiral?
I know you're under a lot of pressure - there's step one ... STEP TWO ... THEN STEP THREE.
As far as being able to DO anything about anything ... that's ... all there is.
What's your sponsor say?
It's still the same disease.
hang in ...
this sounds like the disease is taking a sidestep.
if we can't drink - we use. If we can't use - we eat. If we can't eat - we have sex. If we can't find anyone for that - we gamble. If we can't find that - we cut and burn.
See the spiral?
I know you're under a lot of pressure - there's step one ... STEP TWO ... THEN STEP THREE.
As far as being able to DO anything about anything ... that's ... all there is.
What's your sponsor say?
It's still the same disease.
ok then -
my sponsor goes out of town a good bit certain times of the year as well. I've set myself up wiwth 'step-sponsors' ... others with quite a bit of sobriety who I can call if I can't find her.
There's your task.
We're here, too!
my sponsor goes out of town a good bit certain times of the year as well. I've set myself up wiwth 'step-sponsors' ... others with quite a bit of sobriety who I can call if I can't find her.
There's your task.
We're here, too!
Congratulations on your sober time, and welcome to SR. I'm sorry you're self-harming and I'm glad you've brought it out into the open. Perhaps you can PM 'Done with it' she has lots of ES&H and will be most helpful to you.
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Good for you Odaat!
I understand your concern the self-harm and I can't offer any advice except to say, that you'll be able to deal with this, just as you dealt with your alcoholism.
I understand your concern the self-harm and I can't offer any advice except to say, that you'll be able to deal with this, just as you dealt with your alcoholism.
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Hi Odaat...have you tried a self-injury forum? Dont know if it will help, but here is one site I found...
http://www.facetheissue.com/communit...splay.php?f=15
So glad you are staying sober... good for you!
http://www.facetheissue.com/communit...splay.php?f=15
So glad you are staying sober... good for you!
I'll ask around to see if anyone would mind being called late at night. I did ask one lady and she was only available till 9pm.
I found it incredibly difficult to ask for numbers. I've managed to ask one person for a home phone number - every gives out mobile numbers and I can't afford to phone them.
I've only ever managed to make one phonecall, and luckily she didn't answer. I don't know how to get over the fear of phoning people. When I'm really low, I'm unlikely to be able to have a conversation, all I can do is cry.
I found it incredibly difficult to ask for numbers. I've managed to ask one person for a home phone number - every gives out mobile numbers and I can't afford to phone them.
I've only ever managed to make one phonecall, and luckily she didn't answer. I don't know how to get over the fear of phoning people. When I'm really low, I'm unlikely to be able to have a conversation, all I can do is cry.
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odaat, I feel you pain and it is so scary to watch you go thru this. Please forgive me if I step out of line, but you need to get some profesional help. ASAP! You problems are not just alcohol related, they are bigger than that. You state that you have harmed yourself 4 times in 2 weeks....please seek outside help...you can get well...you can do this, but not alone.
odaat, I feel you pain and it is so scary to watch you go thru this. Please forgive me if I step out of line, but you need to get some profesional help. ASAP! You problems are not just alcohol related, they are bigger than that. You state that you have harmed yourself 4 times in 2 weeks....please seek outside help...you can get well...you can do this, but not alone.
You might want to try just a regular "counselor." They are MUCH easier to get an appt with than an actual psychiatrist.
Wish I was in England - you could call me any time of the night. Well, you still could but that would probably be pretty expensive.
Wish I was in England - you could call me any time of the night. Well, you still could but that would probably be pretty expensive.
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