i understand the fear of phoning people at night when things seem to always be at the worst for some reason- im a night owl and im always awake late- if i had the coverage for free phone to england i would help you out- i have free calling in the USA but i dont think it works for england- im sorry that you are going thru this and at a remarkable time ELEVEN MONTHS of sobriety is alot to be proud of!!!!! i agree with the poster that said we replace addictions with other things- and i agree with everyones advice on a counselor- it seems to be a deep seeded issue to want to self harm but i understand- any addiction is self harming in its own way- hang in there stay strong come on here when you feel like harming yourself im usually on here when everyone else is catching their Z's (sleeping) you can PM me anytime, or even mail me ill talk to you thru things online if that helps at all!!!!!
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maria
