Originally Posted by muzyrules

Hi there, I have only posted a few times but I need some help. I have been clean (until yesterday) for almost three months. Came home from resedential treatment two weeks ago and was feeling great. My drug of choice was prescription meds. Yesterday I got a prescription for codeine from the dentist (had a very infected jaw) and I picked up a bottle of wine. I don't even drink! I have been taking the pills by the hand full and drank the wine last night. I am so angry and discouraged at myself, I keep telling myself to go flush the pills but I can't seem to do it. I am scared and don't know what to do. I don't want to give in to this and I can't believe I started again. What the heck do I do now? Please send me some advice. I can't just go to a NA meeting as I live in a small town with only one meeting a week and I am sooooo embarassed I don't know who to talk to. My family is so proud, I don't want to let them down yet again... Who do I talk to? Thanks for your time.