(((Rahsue)))
You are making some fine progress! I'm so proud of you!
Im not sure about your meeeting, but at my Alanon meetings, there is a person running that meeting for that night, and generally you read through the books, One day at a time, and Courage to change, and then each discuss what the reading means in your life. You don't have to say a word if you don't want to. Sometimes there's a topic that the person in charge wants to discuss.
Please don't be nervous, us, who attend meetings all had to go to that first one.
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They're going to love you, and hopefully, you will love the meetings.