OH! merlin, I know EXACTLY how you feel. it is just how I spent the last years of my drinking. The lonliness is apalling!
I used to think I drank cos I was lonely and depressed, it wasn't til I had some sobriety under my belt, and my new friends in AA that I realised I was depressed and lonely BECAUSE I drank.
I chose AA as my method of recovery, and have never regretted it . It provides me with several things
* a plan to live by step by step
* An understanding ear at the end of the phone when ever I need it
* and fellowship
You do not have to do this alone, get to an AA meeting, to fill in that time til you see your counsellor, and listen up big, for the similarities , not the differences. You will find that many have been right where you are now, and found their way out of the mire
Good luck with your recovery journey
HUGX
Leigh