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My heart goes out to you. I am in the beginning of what I hope will be a success story. It took a very long time to get here. My AH has been to rehab 4 times,jail, mental hospitals. He is now embracing sobriety,will it last, I cannot answer that. All I know is he will live with this God awful demon the rest of his life. I read a book called getting them sober,it is free online go to the website,they will mail it to your home. The information I found in that book was very helpful. I had to do alot of soul searching about myself through all this. You see we have been apart for 6 months,this was what I believe helped us both get on the right track to a life free of addiction and codependency. If love alone would have saved him he would have been sober years ago. This disease is too powerful,that I could not accept until now.I wish you well,take care of you so you will be able to feel some peace. God Bless...........