Oh Cece, we DO NOT CHOOSE this way of life. Sure, it is not like cancer (except for those who smoke) but WE...DO...NOT..CHOOSE.
As an addict I only read these threads to remind myself of how we hurt those we love, and I try to think about that because there are those who love me. But it is a stong, not disease, but biological-driven need.
Ohhh, for what it is worth, my heart goes out to you, (((((MACMERRY)))))
Alyce