Tollbooth, I have NEVER GIVEN UP on my XABF! I pray every day and night that somehow, miraculously he'll seek help. Or that one of the Purpose Driven CDs we have been mailing him will sink in. Or some other angel will come along and he'll see the light. Oh no, I have not given up. But I could no longer stand the lies, broken promises, the cheating, the moral bankruptcy, the public humiliation of his abusive mouth any more. If he had been the opposite of those things, drank at home quietly and then went to bed, I would still be there with him. But he DID do those things and no doubt is doing the same with the sap who took him back. I have more self-esteem than to put up with that kind of LACK OF RESPECT.
And so that's why I'm post on SR, venting, going to Celebrate Recovery, mourning his life and impending death from afar. I would not permit him to control and take me down, and he is bound and determined to say "I'll Show Her." Well guess who's the loser? HE is.