All my life I was a people pleaser and still today find myself in those shoes still but not near as often.
It really doesn't matter if people like me or not. I don't have to make people like me or not either. It is free will for them as it is for me. However even with the people that I don't like I can still love them for who they are and sometimes that is very hard to practice for this addict.
We have a program of learning not a destination. So just keep practicing some principles in your life to the best of your ability. Something that the NA Basic Text says that still makes me upset sometimes when I hear it is, "You're probably right where you are suppose to be."
Keep posting and give yourself a break.
