Hi Mandi - congratulations on your decision. Be thankful you came to this realization now and not 20-30 yrs. from now with a ruined life & ruined relationships trailing behind you. It is one of the hardest things you'll ever do, no denying that, but try to feel excited about your new life & new attitude. We'll be here for you, there is loads of wisdom, humor and friendship to be found on SR.