my drug of choice was any type of pain pill i could find. i also liked anxiety meds. and those over the counter ephedrin pills (which it was nothing to take 15-25 a day), but mostly pain pills (also nothing to take entirley too many usually 20-30). and in the 3 years clean time i did not go to a 12 step program, although now i think i should have. i am now trying to find a sponser and going to start going to a NA meetings, the first being wednessday.