Hi Marle,
I'm new here to these forums, and I cannot say I've been in your shoes. I have a sister who is a recovering Heroin addict (5 years clean), an Xhb in recovery (15 mos) and a b/f with 7+years (I'm just a magnet I guess)
I could NEVER imagine this with my two girls..
One thing however I have learned is that I don't have to think about tomorrow right now. I have today. Today you make your decision for today. When the day comes that she wants to see you, make your decision then. Don't try and think too far ahead. Time has a way of healing things and putting them in prosepective. There is a reason they say One day at a time.
God Bless.