Thanks Sue and Doing.
I take what both of you said to heart and will holdit with me. It just hurts to think that I still sit right now as I write and am waiting almost for him to fail again. I have lost alot of trust in him. I know in his heart of hearts he is trying his best to redeem himself, but I at the moment just can't believe it, at least not yet. He doesn't realize how much he has hurt me and if I wasn't so damn codependent and worried about his feelings I would love to let him in on what he has done to me and our relationship over the past few months. I harbor such bad feelings still.
Do either of you go to meetings? Do you think that would help?
Thanks again!
<3Cate