(((Merle))))
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I have been down a similar path.
My AS has been in jail since June. I couldn't bring myself to visit him. I knew that I wasn't ready for it. Finally a couple of weeks ago, I went to visit him. He said that he had gained back 35 pounds since June. I convinced myself that I was strong enough to see him. As I sat there waiting for him, my hands began to sweat.
When he approached me, I cried. WE hugged briefly and it took me a couple of minutes to stop crying. I apologized for crying...........here we sit at the jail and I'm the one apologizing.
Let your daughter see you Merle, warts and all. Even if it is for a brief encounter.
Stay cool, calm and true to you,
Love is the strongest medicine.