I guess i'm just feeling hopelessness bc i don't understand how at one point Shane quit and was telling me he knew he had a problem and blablabla, and now he is so adament that he DOESN'T have a problem...so does he really know he does and is not admitting it to make excuses, or does he REALLY think he DOESN'T? I DO NOT UNDERSTAND? Why did he come to that conclusion at one point, but now he is at the complete opposite end of the spectrum? Is it bc he doesn't want to admit it? Is it bc he can't be without it and feels guilty? OR does he TRULY not get it? I mean, he REALLY doesn't think he has a problem right now - or at least when i last talked to him. Sorry about all the caps
If you were to look inside my head right now my brain would look like a big black scribble. That's what i feel like. I just don't get it?