Punished
I hope you are doing a little better now. I know what you meant about the crying. Once I got started, I never could stop crying until I was all empty. But I think the cry did me good in a way. Anyway, I hope you are better. I don't think you are being punished; God brought you here to this site and I think it will help strengthen you. We will always have bad days and memories that haunt us, but I allow myself to have more good days than bad ones these days. I have found that I have more control over that then I thougt I did. Hang in there; it does get better. Sending more mom hugs your way.
Terri