Ah, Rowan, thank you. I'm so happy to be here and go glad I found this place. I came a good while back because I wanted to stop drinking but I never was able to do it. So I've been lurking because I was still drinking.
I am not seeing a professional at this time, but yes, I do feel I need to. I think my foundation is not solid. I wanted to have a drink Sunday but I was able to not do do that. It was not so hard that time but I do worry about the next time I want a drink.
My s/o, he is a very heavy drinker. I've avoided him. I have to. Plus the fact that I can't just have a drink. I'm the one that stays at the bar till the bartender screams "we ain't got no more liquor."
I want to remain sober so very badly. I pray almost non-stop. I am scared and confused. But I do know I want this sober life. I like it. *smiles*