hey steve and welcome!!
in the beginning what helped me was making a list on paper of all stupid things i did while drinking, each time those things werent supposed to happen but they continued happening. i had to ask myself why this time would be any different! good luck to you, i quit for a few years when i was 21, with the help of aa. at 25 i decided to start up again, and let me tell you, it did not get any better, it only got worse! WAY WORSE!!!! and i only drank for a year and the consequences i am facing i never thought that would be me! i have lived both sides of it, sober and drunk, SOBER is much better and I am happy to be back!!
good luck
L