"There comes a time when you have to use your brains"....wow, what a rotten thing to say to you!!!! You do use your brain and you are doing what is right FOR YOU! Going to a meeting, leaving, doing whatever else THEY think you should, obviously hasn't been right for you. Don't beat yourself up over it, we do what is right for us, when the time is right!
I've heard countless times "How can you still put up with it?"...I want to look them square in the eye and say "the same way I put up with you!"..but I don't. I know your family and friends mean well, but unless they deal with the same situations you have to deal with, they have no clue as to what's going on for you...keep hanging in there.
If you don't make it to a meeting today, at least try to get to a store or library (not sure if you can get all the books at a library) and get the alanon books (which I got mine at a used book store) or the Codependent No More book.
Keep coming here..people care..they really do!
Sped teach