Originally Posted by
taltalonet 
… my mind make to much "noise" now and I have all many fears about the future …
Yes, thinking too much, and especially worrying too much, is an alcoholic trait.
Originally Posted by
taltalonet what will be with me and what people will think about me (family ' friends)
You can always tell your family and friends about your alcoholism later. But chances are, they already know. My friends and family feel better since I’ve sobered up, and I've made a whole bunch of new friends!
Originally Posted by
taltalonet and how can I live with the knowledge that I’m an alcoholic?
Much better than someone who doesn’t know!
Originally Posted by
taltalonet how will it effect my life?
Depends on what you do about it. You can have a great life.
Originally Posted by
taltalonet I will be less person then other?
I don't think there is any such thing.
Originally Posted by
taltalonet people will laugh at me for the rest of my life???
No one laughs at me because of my alcoholism. They laugh at me for all kinds of other stuff though, but it’s cool. Sometimes it makes me feel more a part of everyone.