Kris, I know about those wake up calls and letting your health go. I did the same thing until pain sent me to the ER. I thought heart attack too. Finally made a doctor's appointment. Found out that my cholesterol is way too high. So I decided to make some changes. Since last Wednesday I have been eating the really good diet and I will be starting a Statin drug. I was thinking about making a post similar to yours. A warning to those who are living with the stress of addiction. So I totally understand what you are feeling too. When my husband took me to the ER all I could think about was leaving my precious dogs without a mommy. I hope that you find the cause of your illness and that you can start to feel better soon. I know how scary and discouraging it is when you don't feel good. Prayers and hugs, Marle