I do not believe, as much as I want to, that I will EVER be able to talk to my XABF without animosity either in my heart or in my voice.
I am happy for you Jewelz.. having this conversation. It shows growth I wish for.
Perhaps, someday, it will happen for me as well. At this point there is no contact and that is the only thing that works for me. I am glad XABf and I have no children together.
I think your recovery is shining.