My Looking Good Is Not Feeling Good
ALL ALL ALL
HI EVERYBODY,
I WANTED TO SHARE WITH YOU SOME THING'S THAT I'VE BEEN
GETTING TO DO, AND THAT IS TAKE SOME OF MY OWN INVENTORY.
ON SOME DIFFERENT LEVEL'S, MEETING'S AND HOW I FUNCTION WITHIN THEM.
I'VE BEEN HEARING SOME THING'S THAT I HAVEN'T HEARD BEFORE
IN MEETING'S.
SEE I'VE BEEN TORN BETWEEN A COUPLE OF DIFFERANT APPROCHES AND SEE THEM IN OTHER'S.
1.
"SHUT YOUR TRAP AND LISTEN!" I HEAR THAT LOUD AND CLEAR
BUT HOW DO I EXPRESS WERE I'M AT FOR THE ONE'S THAT GET
SOMETHING OUT OF WHAT I'M SAYING?
THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO GET SOMETHING OUT OF ANYTHING YOU SAY WHETHER IT BE PATIENCE, TOLERANCE, IDENTIFICATION,
HOPE, AND THE LIST CAN GO ON.
SO BACK TO THE POINT.
THIS KEPT ME FROM SAYING ANYTHING. THIS WAS GOOD AND BAD. GOOD BECAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE TO BE ALL CAUGHT UP IN;
WHAT DO I SAY TO SOUND SMART OR COOL AND I COULD WORK ON MY LISTENING SKILL'S.
BAD BECAUSE I'M NOT A REAL SOCIAL GUY BEFORE AND AFTER THE MEETING. AND DON'T KNOW ALOT OF PEOPLE.
2.
QUOTE OUT OF THE BOOK LIKE MACHINE WORD FOR WORD
(THIS MADE ME SICKER; FROM THE HEAD INSTEAD OF THE HEART)
3.
FEED OFF WHAT OTHER'S ARE SAYING, GO WITH THE FLOW;
HAPPY THIS HAPPY THAT OR PISSY THIS, YOU GET THE POINT
OR DO THE OPPOSITE OF WHATEVER THE VIBE IS, TO BE DIFFERANT. (THIS ALSO MADE ME SICKER)
4.
EXPERIENCE, STRENGTH & HOPE
FOR A COMPLICATED GUY LIKE MYSELF THIS TAKE'S PRACTISE
(COMPLICATED DOES NOT EQUAL INTELLIGENCE)
SO FAR MY STORY IS ALL CRAZY AND HARD TO GET OUT.
BUT WHAT DO I KNOW FOR SURE!
(LIKE MY SPONSOR SAY'S)
WELL I KNOW MY SOBRIETY DATE.
I KNOW I HAVE A SPONSOR.
I PRACTISE THE STEP'S DAILY TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY.
GRATITUDE IS KEY TO A POSITIVE OUTLOOK.
TRUST THE PROGRAM/TRUST GOD OR H.P.
CLEAN HOUSE.
HELP OTHER'S.
AND WHAT ARE MY FEELING'S?
AND WHAT IS THE SOLUTION?
HONESTY, IS A BIG ONE FOR ME.
THAT'S THE ONE I'M TRYING TO HONE NOW.
IF I'M SIDEWAY'S IN MY THINKING HOW WILL OTHER'S KNOW
UNLESS I SHARE MY BRILLENT PLAN OR WHATEVER IT MAY BE.
FOR THE TIME BEING I'M JUST GONNA BE HONEST, AND IF I'M NOT
SURE IF I'M CAPABLE, I'LL EXPRESS A DEEP SECRET ABOUT MYSELF
IN ORDER TO TAP THAT SOURCE.
ANYWAY'S I'M ALMOST SURE I LEFT SOMETHING OUT BUT OH WELL
I'M ALLOWED TO MAKE MISTAKE'S TODAY, CAUSE OF THIS PROGRAM, YOU AND GOD.
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET RID OF MY "SELECTIVE HONESTY".
IT POP'S UP ALL THE TIME.
I WAS TOLD THERE IS 3 KIND'S OF HONESTY;
1. PEOPLE MASTERBATE. (HONESTY)
2. I MASTERBATE. (RIGORIOUS HONESTY)
3. I MASTERBATE THINKING OF YOU. (BRUTLE HONESTY)
I HOPE THIS ISN'T TOO CRUDE BUT IT'S A GREAT EXAMPLE.
THANK'S FOR LISTENING
AND THANK'S FOR 12 STEPPING ME
JACK B.