CDK, i know how you feel about wanting for him to call. I think about that everyday of my life since this break up. I keep thinking he will call and say he screwed up but have to come to the realization that deep down inside i dont want him to really call because i'm too weak still and will probably be sucked right back into the drama and mess he calls life.....no contact is the best for yourself, let him wonder what you are doing
easier said than done, TRUST ME, but one day you'll be glad because you will be one more day further along in your recovery and stronger.