well i went last night and looked at a couple of houses for rent.. I am going to try and keep faith that I can get on the right path and stay there. I know I have to do something fast. I have a plan if I can just stick to it. I am going to rent a house until we can sell ours. (he will not give it to me or stay there). Then I will find me another place to buy. I know its going to hurt and be hard. But, I keep thinking how much harder can it be.. Last night if I wouldnt have came home when I did our house would have probably burnt down. He passed out on the couch while cooking. the stuff wsa burning in the pan. the burner was sparking. And the house was filled with smoke. then he looks at me like I am crazy when I grip...
I hate drugs. I have to keep thinking about the bad things cause if I dont I let guilt and felling sorry for him take over. And I have done that for to long now..
as cail said its time for me to step up and start swinging for my kids, grandkid, and myself..
Thanks everyone for letting me vent...