Hi Rimmy - WELCOME back
Have you been back to an AA meeting yet? Meditation helps, but working the steps helps even more. I tried to quit on my own for years and years - was able to do it for a day, or a week, but always found my way back to the bottle. It wasn't until I went to AA, soaked up the experience, strength and hope in the rooms, and followed directions that I managed to quit and STAY quit.
Good for you for reaching out...I hope you let yourself get all the help that is available to you