I am reading Codependent no more. And i"m learning. But here's where I keep getting stuck-the question is, "If you stop reacting, what is the worst that can happen?" Well, the worst that can happen is that I will once again be left alone and scared and depressed. I was so lonely and depressed before i met him. I know i can't rely on someone else to make me happy, but that lonely world scares the hell out of me. And we've been together for awhile, and i've grown to appreciate his company until as of late. I'm scared to be without him, and so it makes me question if it was that bad or not....he DID call today, as AReaLlady said he probably would...and i didn't answer. Frankly, i was scared he would tell me to F off. and he called again tonight-neither time leaving a message. I'm scared to talk to him, bc i'm scared he will say he never wants to see me again. How messed up is that? I should be jumping for joy....