But how do i not take it so personally and hurt so much? When he says mean things to me, I automatically feel bad,guilty,hurt, whatever. Although my conscience mind knows it's him saying things in defense, i believe there is some truth to what he is saying as well and it hurts. I've been terrified in thelast two days expecting a phone call from him. I hate this so much. I can't even get through the day like a normal person.