In My case, S will not go to AA because he says, "There's no way i'm going to go to a place where i've probably arrested half of those people at one time or the other...how would i ever be taken seriously if i'm right there beside them?" Of course, that was when he DID have a problem. He doesn't right now. Told me yesterday if he wants to relax with a scotch it's none of my damn business. So i guess you also need to relax on your three days off when nothing else in the entire world is going on?! I can't get over how mean he was yesterday. I keep hearing his angry voice rolling in my head over and over. and it scares me a little bit. I'm scared he'll call again and be mean again, and i always cave and become weak and start crying instead of being able to say, Screw you don't ever talk to me that way! It is in my head, but never able to come out of my mouth. it's like i freeze up. I can't believe how crazy i feel in my head. I don't even trust my own thoughts right now.