Take away my beer, take away my fun and the tool I use for coping with life. And eventually, I loved my DOC more than I loved the woman I married. I also realized when I sobered up that I'd been covering up depression for 27 years, medicating it with booze.
AA meetings make me happy. Being a sober father to two beautiful children makes me even happier. Having a great girlfriend who works a fantastic program makes me ecstatic. Recovery makes me REALLY happy, but it's been a long journey to reach this point and it requires constant action.