Spiritual Seeker..Thanks for the advice and support. Why am I so weird about going to AA? I guess because deep in my heart I don't feel that I'm "that bad off".. This is the first time I've ever reached out to any community openly about getting some help. Baby steps at first for this man.
I'm embarrassed, upset and disappointed in myself. I'm not ready to walk into a room full of people that I don't know.. maybe later if I need it.
At least with the forum, I can hide behind my cartoon avatar and type messages without looking at someone in the eye. Know what I mean?