I finally fought back ... and it is all my fault no one ever controls me it is always it is always my fault that is what my mother told me
I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE... not that siting in my bedroom at 11 oclock by myself crying on a friday night isn't fun or anything
I have come to the concluetion that i will never be incontrol of my own life... todays fight was over my brithmother and how i am to never to call mom or mama or anything mother related or my mother will disown me
or in her words is can be my mother
i don't know what to do or where to go the pain is ...
i going back to college and it seems that my problems follow me or my mother dose even when my dad was **** drink if i say i need help her would drive (yes i know this was a bad idea) a plane and a train just to be by my side
in many ways my mom is the same but she has to tell me how todo everything
i don't know what to do or how to make my own choices and to get out of the control of my mother because she will not pay for college or will tell me to go backto where i came from
ANY IDEAS HELP