I am controled like a pupet
Frist off Hi all....
It took me moving away to relize that I have never been in control of my own life and even now I have to fight for control.
With my dad his drinking controled eveything....could not talk to him past 5pm or he would not be able to recall what we talked about
With my mom her moods controled everything she would tell me what to do, how to do it and how to feel while doing it. At one point I kept a weeks worth of clothes in my car so that when she would kick me out I could walk off without having to pack
I strated dating a guy who wanted to do what I wanted to do and cared out my opion and did not tell me what to do every min of the day and I had no clue what to do.
This made me start thinking that I had no life of my own and I don't think I do right now ethier but I am closer than I was a week ago.
I guess my whole point of writing this is to ask if anyone else has felt or feels this way.
I know for years being the only sober on in the house has changed the person I have become but i did not know how much intill i was given a choice