Sounds perfectly normal to me Karen, at least from what I've experienced myself. Seems like every few months I go to a meeting and for some reason I feel disconnected from the Fellowship, like I don't fit in or don't belong. And like Sugah shared, that's usually the result of not feeling good about myself, but at the moment I'm not seeing it.
Then there are nights like last night when I walked out of my CoDA meeting and sat down on a bench, and as my AA homegroup was leaving the room across the hall I was greeted and surrounded by friends in recovery. That was the warmest feeling I've had in a long time, so many of my friends stopped by to talk.
This too shall pass (((karen)))