Hi, Charm. I am also a newbie here and in a similar situation. My ex has just dropped me with no apparent explanations. I really feel your hurt and anger. I also feel angry like I should be the one who should have broke it off since he is really a loser with no solid job, was always high, never able to keep promises, etc. I also go through a lot of "why"s myself even though it never produces any good explanations. My ex had terrible mood swings, one minute he was all nice and lovely, then next minute, he was a raging bull with a lot of blaming (it seems As love using this technique).