I sure as heck know what you mean. sometimes I think about how open I have been with the abf, the things I told him that he threw back in my face, and how much trust I gave him and then he just abused it, and I imagine that I will never do that again, but then I think, it is not right to punish whoever that man that comes into my life next for the things the abf did to me.
at the end of the day i am the kind of person who picks myself up and ends up giving my all to a relationship. perhaps I am reckless, but, I figure when the right man comes along it will work out to my advantage.
but yeah, there are times when I think, no more boyfriends, if I am horny, I call a gigolo or buy a vibrator.