Teke,
Only wine and cheese age, we mortals are forever young in spirit, if we choose to be.
Yes, my outer exterior has changed over the years, a few wrinkles (I've earned everyone of them) and I have gained some weight (one mouthful at a time)...yet in spirit I am 30, not soon to be 60.
My attitude is good, my wisdom has aged with me. I am happy with me, and that I believe is the key, be happy with you, who you are.
Focus on your strengths, not your weaknesses.
I am now dating a man who is 45, my boy toy, younger men are attracted to me because of my spirit, my wisdom, my knowledge, not my exterior, it is what I project about me and my life that is attractive to them.
I've learned to accept aging, and accept the truth about the aging process, I am comfortable with that issue, I don't really think about my age, I just keep moving and growing.
Sure, I could have a face lift, a boob job, a tummy tuck, but would that change who I am? No, not a bit, if I am miserable on the inside, I would be miserable on the outside, and it would show.
Teke, you are a good person, one who deserves to be respected by a man, the longer you stay in the situation you are currently in, the more your self-esteem will suffer, it just works that way. We project from the inside out, not from the outside in.
Accept what you cannot change, I'll never be 5' tall, I am 5'9", I'll never be reed thin again, I'll never be 30 again in years, but, I will be me, and accept me for who I am, from the inside out.
Hugs,