Hi,
Have you ever of "What goes around comes around." or
"We reap what we sow."
As I progressed in recovery I grew to realize that my self-worth didn't depend on if someone missed me or why they wouldn't overcome their addictions for me.
As I came to these awarenesses I realized that my self-worth epends on me and how I treat myself not on another person who just wants to exploit me if I let them.
This was very empowering for me. It has helped me to change the type of people I spend time with
and change how I treat myself.
Hence my life has changed tremendously.
And yours will too. You'll learn you don't have to give your personal power away to a sick person who will mistreat you.
Earthworm
Originally Posted by
hbb 
Thanks Earth, i guess i chalk it up to loneliness and it hurts to hear that he doesn't even seem to be effected by this at all according to co-workers. But like my counselor said, who knows, he's probably not showing or saying much of anything to get back to me. I know it shouldn't matter anymore and he did do me a favor in the long run but why doesn't this stuff bite them in the ass???? In hindsight maybe it has, he will be in debt for a very long time, no white picket fence, barely getting by in life as a previous post mentioned. I definately want nice or decent things, a house, kids, just keep thinking it will take me sooo long to meet someone new. It just felt so right when J and i met and things were great. Better to find out now right???