I've decided I'm going to work on upgrading myself a little to really reflect the true me. For quite awhile, I've settled for many things that didn't really suit me, but seemed frugal or just would make do for awhile.
When I mentioned in an earlier post about not fitting in, I really didn't with that particular group. I may have wanted to, but that would have been settling again and compromising my true self just to go along with the flow.
So I decided to work on upgrading a few things in my life. I'm redecorating a few furniture pieces here and there to fit my own preferences and going to upgrade my wardrobe. I'm worth an upgrade. All within my budget, nothing extravagant, but definitely more my own taste. I love a good bargain, but sometimes it's worth more to get what you really want. Maybe that's my new life metaphor.
Enough of trying to fit in where I really don't. I did that for way too long and for now I just need to accept myself. I am the way I am for a reason. I don't have to settle or be uncomfortable trying to be something different. Those that know the real me will never try to take advantage and will accept me. I don't want to be a chameleon anymore to try to get the approval or acceptance from others. After awhile of doing that, I started to forget who I really am.
Yes, this seems very simple, but for me this is a huge break through of insecurities.
Maybe someone can relate.