DW, I understand how you feel, does that help, maybe ,maybe not.....and we never outgrow our need for our Mom (at least I didn't).........
I like Teke separated many times and always went back with hope in my heart....only to wind up pregnant and alone once again.....I did it over and over....no one could tell me that it would not be different each time.....and it was different, it was worse and me and my children suffered a lot longer than necessary because I was in denial.....so yes we have been exactly where you are now.....so do what you want to do......we all have to learn in our own time and in our own way.....I pray that all your dreams come true and you will live happily ever after.....but don't bet the farm on it.....take precautions to keep yourself safe, get your finances in order and hope for the Best but prepare for the worst.....
Peace