Gunea...thats an awesome story...you have come a long way baby.....want to hear a good one?
Like you I have spent 2 years today.......beating myself up...going through all the emotions that the healing process delivers to us - wanting so bad for my XAH to feel remorse, shame, guilt for what he's done to us, and our family....and he hasn't and probaby never will. BUT yesterday I heard a good story about him and his hooch ... now keep in mind he left the kids and I for her (alcoholic, meth bi-polar)....it seems that the church that they go to is about to give them the boot....the small town that they live in (16 miles from me) has had enough of their drunken escapades in the carryout stores in the town and being the huge party house in town...she actually called the pastor the last several weeks at 2 in the morning saying to him that she wants a divorce and can't believe that she married this alcohilic drug user man and even added him to her deed !!!! LOL LOL LOL well ....well...well and can we all say: KARMA..... the pastor has had enough as well as the town people...this was so good to hear because all I kept thinking was how he left me and now has a newer home, more land, party girl...ect....You guys know how we beat ourselves up with the unknown....the woman who told me this is the same woman who saw the two of them in the carryout 2 weeks ago drunk and falling down...literally. My ex won't even look at my friend because he knows she's my appraiser that I use for my loans....and he knows she "knows" his shame. And she goes to that church that they go to....
I know alot of you will be telling me that I shouldn't listen to any of this crap but you guys.....I'm sorry I loved it....I can't help it...just when we feel so sorry for ourselves that we just want to run away from all the memories and the what if's....the man upstairs send us just a little view into their "new" life....and guess what? It ain't purty.....lol Now I am a firm believer that God protects children and drunks.....but hunny cheaters never win.....and thats the way it should be....
Take care Guinea....
Janitw