Hmm, no not really to be honest but I can see why you might make that conclusion. My downfall comes because I tend to drink to deal with life's circumstances, it's my default coping mechanism, I'm aware of that and need to change that in order to succeed this time around. The last time I started drinking again it was because of my son's father being diagnosed with a fatal illness that caused his death and then my mother died. I didn't white knuckle it until those circumstances arose.